It has been showing up. Knocking on my door. Here I am, it says. Here I am because I’m so familiar. I don’t want to let it in, somehow it stays for a coffee. It knows how to try and stay. A love from the past that brought darkness; a wound that’s too familiar; the comfort it sells seems to be the hardest to resist.
“Maybe I do miss him; maybe I should go back to what I was; maybe it’d be easier.”
No! The light kicks in. The work done after months of healing and choosing right hasn’t gone unnoticed. It gets mad for a minute; for even considering the possibility of falling into the crippling arms of fear. It won’t have it.
It would seem to be an obvious choice; and yet…we’ve created a habit out of fear and it knows that. As soon as you’re shining bright, it tries to pull you back. The familiar, the box, the darkness. It makes us feel terrible, we cannot see clearly, it makes us stuck; and yet we consider it sometimes. Don’t let it. If you had a coffee with it, show it out. Leave it out and continue your work of light.
The light always wins. It requires bravery, strength, courage, determination, discipline, resilience and doing the work that is necessary. Why do you think so many choose the darkness? It’s easy. But easy isn’t always right. Easy will ruin your life. Comfort will give you a lukewarm hug. Those hugs where you want to feel love but you don’t. The security that’s never there. The commitment that speaks but doesn’t act.
The light might seem tougher; it’s not. It just transforms you into the best version of yourself, and for that to happen, you must know your power. How will you know how strong you are if you don’t leave weakness behind? How will you know the light if you don’t step out of the dark box?
It all makes sense. Trust it. Trust the light. Trust yourself. Trust the universe. And once you choose the light over and over again, fear might come knocking but you won’t even get up. You’ll just let it pass through knowing that your commitment to the light is forever.
I commit to the light. I commit today and always. I commit to choosing what’s right and not easy. I commit to me and those who are light. I say farewell to the past, to the darkness. It came with love but now it’s just the dark. Goodbye darkness. Thank you for teaching me and letting me go. Thank you for leading me to the light. I’m forever grateful. I’ll be letting go now. The light and I are meant to be.