What we let go of

Sometimes we must let go. It’s hard when you don’t want to give up but we must come first. Our sanity. Our peace. Self care. We live in a world that worships the outer world. What we have, who we’re with, our relationship status, material things, etc.

We stay out of fear. We forget who we really are and we forget our true power. We are powerful beyond belief. We are strong and we can endure more than we think. I don’t encourage suffering but I do encourage bravery.

The more I grow, the more I see how important it is for us to be real and true to what we know deep inside to be best. Our connection to that voice doesn’t lead us astray. It knows best and we must listen carefully. We must trust.

Let go of what doesn’t serve you and you make space for what does. Believe in the beauty of your path and never hold on to what doesn’t want to stay. Let it all go and know that what is meant to be in your life will be there.

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True love

True love. There’s so much emotion behind this concept. I’m from the princesses generation and have found that it’s still going on. True love is wonderful and of course I want to share my life with the love of my life. But our true love must be ourselves. You must know that you aren’t worthless without someone else. You’re not alone if you’re single. Nothing is wrong with you without that guy or girl.

I wanted to address this because I’ve put too much attention and energy on what this means. Also, I’ve seen many people settle because they’re afraid of being alone, or worse, it’s just good enough. I know being human is hard but that does not mean you’ll dim your light to fit it. It does not mean you should give up. Feeling hopeless at times is normal but don’t let it fool you. If you’ve been brave and know your worth, stay in your light.

At the end of the day be the hero of the story, not the victim. Be your own true love, not the coward. Be someone you’re proud to be and trust the Universe will deliver what is best at the right place and time.

Conditioning

I’m single. After a long term relationship, I’m single. I’m in my 30s and I’m single. Society conditioned me to think this is bad but then they didn’t explain what happens when that conditioning drains your well dry. That’s the thing about societal conditioning; they spread the judgement, the rules and yet; they don’t live your life. They don’t guarantee any sort of happiness. They have no depth or idea of living in the light.

It’s hard for me to admit my conditionings because I’m a lightworker in the making. But then again, for me, spreading your light isn’t about being perfect or flawless; it’s about being real and helping those in any circumstance.

We’ve all been conditioned but we sometimes don’t see it or don’t want to see it. It happens more in relationships because it blinds us.

I’m here to remind you to wake up. Wake up to what’s best for you. Don’t settle and don’t care what others think. Would you prefer to have the relationship that looks OK but deep inside doesn’t feel OK? No. And if the answer is yes, then you’re lacking self love and I encourage you to do anything and everything to work on that first. That’s what I did and not only did it open my eyes, but the universe conspired and took away a man that was wounded and making me bleed.

Don’t lead your life based on any sort of conditioning. Lead a life you know is right. It’s a process and it won’t feel perfect but you’ll know deep down inside that it’s right; even when you’re heartbroken. The light heals, transforms and never leaves you alone. All the universe asks is that you do your best even when your best is just a little bit somedays. All they ask is that you live your truth and trust. There’s a power beyond us that will help us out in our darkest hour. Believe.

Break free. Be you. Don’t apologize for being authentic and spread your light. It might not feel easy but it’s certainly worth it.

There you are

And you’re healing and you’re growing. And you’re using all your energy to leave the past behind and you’re doing all the work. You’re trusting the universe and blindly push through. With an inner fire you show up and know. Deep inside you know it’s worth it. You do your yoga, your meditation or any inner work that your soul calls for.

You keep showing up and suddenly it comes. That day you were praying for. That day when you wake up and the past is behind you and the present lights you up. Not only that, people start showing up. That human you needed to meet; that soul that matches yours. That like minded creature that matches your vibe. It can be for an instant, days, months, years or forever; it matters not. What matters most is your ability to manifest what is for the greater good.

Keep showing up; keep doing the work. Keep pushing through and betting on yourself, it’s completely worth it. One day you’ll wake up and say: there you are. You’ll happily greet yourself with joy because you’re finally the best version of you. You’ll be in love with yourself and everything and everyone else will be an added bonus. Those added bonuses will exceed your wildest dreams. Why? Because you won’t expect them, you’ll attract them. It’s an energy game; one worth playing. After a while it gets fun and you become a super attractor.

Believe. Trust. Love. Invest in you. Keep going. Enjoy. Live fully. Do what sets your soul on fire. Be you. Love you. After a while you’ll be so full of you that you’ll want to share with others your light. I hope to share mine with as many humans as possible.

Light yourself

Light yourself up. We dim our lights way too much. I still do it and it’s a terrible habit. We must break the darkness and follow the light. The ego knows our weaknesses and that’s where it tries to enter. That’s why we should eliminate our weaknesses by either embracing them or doing something about it if we can. It’s our responsibility to live fully if we want to be light workers.

You can be having the worst day but if you read, meditate, do a little yoga or anything that you know lights you up, it all changes. Every moment is a decision. And the better decisions you make moment by moment, the better you feel on a regular basis. The darkness might never go away completely but we can stop it from taking a hold of us and if it shows up, light it up with truth. The ego only feeds lies and we decide whether we engage or not. Don’t. Be ready with words of light. Be ready with faith and love. Be kind. The kinder you are, the faster it leaves.

So, if you can, go do something that lights you up; you never regret doing what you love or following your bliss.

I was faced with some fears recently and I did a good job snapping out of it but it didn’t cease to amaze me how intense the old patterns can be. The persuade you into falling when there’s nothing to fall for. The work we do, the light we choose is the only path worth walking.

Goodbye

I loved you but I have to let you go. You’re no longer welcome here. I’m going through a procedure to remove you from my being. I decided today to remove you from my sacred body, mind and soul. It’s time. Goodbye.

You were the one for me until you shattered my heart with your reckless ways. It took me enough time to remove your physicality. Now I think it’s time to remove you from my heart and mind. I know you’ll still try to stay but I will ignore you. If I see you, I will ignore you. If I feel you, I will ignore you. If I think you, I will ignore you completely. I’m sorry if I’m being rude or tough but I must say goodbye forever.

It breaks my heart but I must say goodbye. Goodbye to all of you; the good and the bad. You were a few chapters in my book and now I must turn the page. Move on to a brighter, stronger more enlightened chapter. Since you’ve been gone, my book has gotten much more interesting and mystical. Thank you for leaving.

Thank you for the pain, thank you for the heartache. I didn’t know how strong I was. I didn’t know I could go through this and not only survive but thrive. I didn’t know that my life would be better without you. So, thank you. If you wouldn’t have shattered my heart, I wouldn’t have let you go because I loved you as deeply as the ocean. Thank you for loving me the best way you could.

I’m sorry that your childhood pain overpowered the love. I’m sorry I couldn’t help you more. I’m sorry I couldn’t help you heal. I’m sorry I couldn’t make you see the light. But, the light can only be seen by those who believe in it. So, that’s on you.

I forgive you if you’re sorry. I forgive you if you’re not sorry. I forgive you and let you go. I forgive the mistakes and the pain. I forgive myself for not walking away sooner. I forgive myself for not wanting to see the very obvious red flags. I forgive myself for being weak. I forgive myself for not believing in my own power. I forgive myself for being hard on you and wanting to change you. I forgive myself for wanting to marry someone so broken.

Thank you for the good times. I forgive you for the bad. I’m sorry if I hurt you. I forgive you for hurting me. I wish you well and I hope you know how much I loved you.

I will find someone who’ll love me right and I’ll smile in gratitude knowing that letting you go was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. Thank you for holding on to your ego tightly and letting me go. Goodbye.

Goodbye fear

It has been showing up. Knocking on my door. Here I am, it says. Here I am because I’m so familiar. I don’t want to let it in, somehow it stays for a coffee. It knows how to try and stay. A love from the past that brought darkness; a wound that’s too familiar; the comfort it sells seems to be the hardest to resist.

“Maybe I do miss him; maybe I should go back to what I was; maybe it’d be easier.”

No! The light kicks in. The work done after months of healing and choosing right hasn’t gone unnoticed. It gets mad for a minute; for even considering the possibility of falling into the crippling arms of fear. It won’t have it.

It would seem to be an obvious choice; and yet…we’ve created a habit out of fear and it knows that. As soon as you’re shining bright, it tries to pull you back. The familiar, the box, the darkness. It makes us feel terrible, we cannot see clearly, it makes us stuck; and yet we consider it sometimes. Don’t let it. If you had a coffee with it, show it out. Leave it out and continue your work of light.

The light always wins. It requires bravery, strength, courage, determination, discipline, resilience and doing the work that is necessary. Why do you think so many choose the darkness? It’s easy. But easy isn’t always right. Easy will ruin your life. Comfort will give you a lukewarm hug. Those hugs where you want to feel love but you don’t. The security that’s never there. The commitment that speaks but doesn’t act.

The light might seem tougher; it’s not. It just transforms you into the best version of yourself, and for that to happen, you must know your power. How will you know how strong you are if you don’t leave weakness behind? How will you know the light if you don’t step out of the dark box?

It all makes sense. Trust it. Trust the light. Trust yourself. Trust the universe. And once you choose the light over and over again, fear might come knocking but you won’t even get up. You’ll just let it pass through knowing that your commitment to the light is forever.

I commit to the light. I commit today and always. I commit to choosing what’s right and not easy. I commit to me and those who are light. I say farewell to the past, to the darkness. It came with love but now it’s just the dark. Goodbye darkness. Thank you for teaching me and letting me go. Thank you for leading me to the light. I’m forever grateful. I’ll be letting go now. The light and I are meant to be.

Forever mine,

Andy